7th January 2009 - a date to remember

Hey peeps. Im back from hiatus.. well not actually. Entah. Few days ago, something has messed up my mind and I hate that. It makes me feel so insecure. I just need someone to look after me. Its not that im not independent.. I am. I need someone who really can look after me, teach me what is wrong what is good. Month ago, my love life sucks. Yes SUCKS. I cried. My eyes were bloated. Im tired. Im stressed. I told you peeps, Helmey kadang2 okay kadang2 inda. Sucks no??

Enough bout that. I don’t want my tears to drop lagi. Cukup tah…
I just want to share my new love life. I don’t care if you guys think that “ehh betukar tia. Kajap atu. Kajap ani” so what… I don’t care! My life not urs… Yang aen tau ayen sti
Few days ago, ayen checked Friendster ayen. Then ada this guy viewed ayen. Ayen bagi ia comment just to say thanks. Start atu kami bebalas2 comment. Ia salu tu buat ayen tunggu2 commentnya pasalnya ia salu batah balas comment ayen :P Kidding by:P. Then on the 4th January 2009 ia suruh ayen add ia pat MSN. So ayen add ia lah tarus. Then kami chat. Before ayen add ia, seriously ayen banar2 lonely. Then sudah ayen add ia pat MSN, entah ah.. macam ayen happy. Lagipun he’s very funny. Until one day, ayen started to have feelings arahnya. Dalam diam ayen sukakan ia. Pi inda tau ialah.. Hee he did told me that he is lonely kan cari pengganti. So yeah time atu ayen pikir ia nada feelings pat ayen macam ayen ada feelings patnya. Then ia ada gtau ia sukakan ayen. Ayen pikir main2 ja. Until one night 6 th January 2009, kami beMSN and he told me that he wants me to be his special girlfriend… macam tah ayen nda mau tu nya :D seriously banar ayen banar2 in love ma ia…

On the 7th January 2009,

Rahim: do you want to be my special girlfriend?
Ayen: what if I say yes?
Rahim: me happy berabis dapat memiliki u
Ayen: really?
Rahim: yes my hny
Ayen: ehe
Rahim: u stuju dengan me?
Ayen: stuju apa?
Rahim: stuju jadi my gf lah
Ayen: if that makes u happy, yeah me stuju
Rahim: really?
Ayen: aulah…. Na caya?
Rahim: mcm nda pcaya bh… akhirnya u jadi milik me

So yeah that night he proposed me. I cried because im happy. Rahim doesn’t know that. Hehehe. It doesn’t really matter ia proposed ayen lam msn kah, lam msg kah apa saja. I don’t care. Yang penting happy. Yang penting he is mine now.

At first he was a stranger to me. Then yeah it end up like this. I love you by. I love him not because of his look. He cared bout me, he love me, always make me laugh. Hee. Really hope that he won’t get bored with me. Really hope that he wont fall in love with another girl.. seriously if ia suka bini2 lain, I’ll kill him. Heheh kidding kidding. I don’t mind plang dengan sapa ia chat, but not too much laa. Coz ayen ane jenisnya penjelous. Tapi jealous pun skajap ja. I know if ayen keep on jealous about something, negative thing will happen.. if ayen marah or jealous pun na jua ayen kan gtau pat bf ayen pasalnya ayen pun mesti paham jua kan perasan nya. So simpan sajalah dalam hati kan. J All I want is: honesty and loyalty. Erghhh I miss him soo soo much. Im happy now atleast ayen inda sunyi gi kan…. Ehehe.

Since ayen lonely ganya atu kan, zack tempat ayen meluah luahkan perasaan wa… Iatah since atu ia macam sasakkan sudah si helmey pasalnya helmey na duli kna aku and zack paggil ia si jerk.

Zack: Eh enuff talking bout si JERK ah. U deserve a better man (rahim) dari si JERK atu.

See how much he hates helmey. Pi biar kan tia. J Past is past. Now ayen ada Rahim. I love you soo much by. I really do :’) Got pictures to post plang pi krg tah coz alum siap :D

I LOVE YOU

AYEN AND RAHIM

7TH JANUARY 2009