Endless Love

This song is very meaningful....
My love yang balik2 nyanyi lagu ani everytime we were on the phone...
thats why i started to love the song...
Endless Love - Mariah Carey

My love,
There's only you in my life
The only thing that's right

My first love,
You're every breath that I take
You're every step I make

And I
(I-I-I-I-I)
I want to share
All my love with you
No one else will do...

And your eyes
Your eyes, your eyes
They tell me how much you care
Ooh yes, you will always be
My endless love

Two hearts,
Two hearts that beat as one
Our lives have just begun

Forever
(Ohhhhhh)
I'll hold you close in my arms
I can't resist your charms

And love
and, love
I'll be a fool
For you,
I'm sure
You know I don't mind
Oh, you know I don't mind

'Cause baby you,
(baby baby baby)
You mean the world to me
Oh
I know
I know
I've found in you
My endless love

Oooh-woow
do do do do do
do do do do do
do do doo doo

Oooh, and love
Oh, love
I'll be that fool
For you,
I'm sure
That You know I don't mind
Oh you know-
I don't mind

And, YES
You'll be the only one
'Cause no one no one can deny
This love I have inside
And I'll give it all to you
My love
My love, my love
My endless love

My true endless love - Muhammad Hafizul Al-Helmey

George Michael - Careless Whisper

i love this song.....
George Michael - Creless Whisper.
the VC? damn super sexayyy

I feel so unsure,
As I take your hand and lead you to the dance floor.
As the music dies...
Something in your eyes,
Calls to mind a silver screen,
And all its sad goodbyes.

CHORUS
I'm never gonna dance again,
Guilty feel have got no rhythm.
Though it's easy to pretend,
I know you're not a fool.
I should have known better than to cheat a friend,
And waste a chance that I'd been given.
So I'm never gonna dance again,
The way I danced with you.

ooh ooh

Time can never mend,
The careless whisper of a good friend.
To the heart and mind,
Ignorance is kind
There's no comfort in the truth,
Pain is the all you'll find.

CHORUS
I'm never gonna dance again,
Guilty feel have got no rhythm.
Though it's easy to pretend,
I know you're not a fool.
I should have known better than to cheat a friend,
And waste a chance that I'd been given.
So I'm never gonna dance again,
The way I danced with you.

Tonight the music seems so loud,
I wish that we could lose this crowd.
Maybe it's better this way,
We'd hurt each other with the things we want to say.

We could have been so good together,
We could have lived this dance forever...
But now, who's gonna dance with me?
Please stay.

CHORUS
And I'm never gonna dance again,
Guilty feel have got no rhythm.
Though it's easy to pretend,
I know you're not a fool.
I should have known better than to cheat a friend,
And waste a chance that I'd been given.
So I'm never gonna dance again,
The way I danced with you.

ooh ooh

Now that you're gone...
Now that you're gone...
Now that you're gone...
Was what I did so wrong?
So wrong that you had to leave me alone?

Happiness come, Sadness go

So i was being so emo tadi pagi as you can read at my previous post...
i was really really emo from 8-ish till 4-ish....
then... happiness came...

Helmey: cyg.. guess what
Helmey: :P
Ayen: what?
Helmey: Lawa nick avy??
Time atu nick nya " I could stay awake, just to hear you breathing, watching you smile while you are sleeping...." FYI... that's my favourite song!!!
Ayen: heee... au lawa....
Helmey: Guesslah apa....
Ayen: Gtau ja... cyg na pndi ne berguess2...
Helmey: Guess what?? i'll be here on the 5th oct celebrating your birthday together...
Helmey: hepi?
Ayen: what? seriusly!! bnr2 wah?!
Helmey: au.... tapi on the 1st till 3rd Oct avy flight ke Singapore....
Ayen: You suc like liverpool..... damn ehhh... nah see.. i can't stop smiling bah!
Helmey: ;) i told you i would do anything for your happiness....

ohhh god...hate that man so much... he makes me love him more....
he told me last minute barutah kena approve ngam jua time atu ia punya flight delay
i love you, loser!
damn, i love you!

Accidents

tadi pagi 11-ish...
ada accident depan rumah ku....
tempat traffic light ah...
selalu tu ada accident sana....
keta merci sama entah na ku tau apa jenis ketanya pi warna biru... both blue colour...

aku kesian wah liat urang tua ah lelaki...
i can heard his screaming minta tolong sambil pigang dadanya...
then urang yang dalam keta merci ani ran to help him....
lots of people help him tadi...
ooo god kesian ehhh....

i still remeber when i was young.... wait... i am young:P
very very young around 4 yrs old kali....
kami atu kan ke Miri...
aku limpang2 dibelakang....
nooo! not limpang2!
aku tidur..
when i woke up...
aku tekajut banyak kaca pat belakang ah tempat aku tidur atu....
then dady keluar and aku nampak a lorry belakang keta kami....
accident panya....
dha~ macam nada perasaan aku ah... pi kanak2 kali tu ah... imean macam belum tau lagi apa2... aku gi baru bangun tidur... grenti ada blur sikit... hehe..

when i was in form 2 or 3...
masa atu baru balik ke skulah so kami singgap jap ke kadai kaling ani...
aku stay ja lam keta ah...
siuk2 dgr mp3....
then my car tu mengajut kebelakang and a loud noise...
panya belanggar sama keta kijang indon...atu keluar ku terus and "WOIIII!! NA PANDAI REVERSE KAH BUDUH!"
mun sudah indon atu nada usulku kan hormat2...
sory ah pi sialan wah indon ani....!
then my dad and my mom ran....

dad: eh kau langgar keta ku?
indon: sorry pak engga sengaja
dad: ada lesen kah?
indon: aduh engga ada pak....
dad: bah cemana? kau mau bayar 300 kah atau pun bawa ke polis... adi ku polis plang ne.... panggil saja ia kemarikah atau bebincang saja di balai
bangang indon ah....
me: bayar saja bah... kau atu gi nada lesen!

then kami ikut lah indon atu ke rmah nya...
rupanya driver yow...
bos2 nya nada...
so ia tpksa bayar kami 300....
hehhehe....
telur ahh indon ani....

ohh yeah...
ada gi satu kisah ani...
aku atu tunggu kawan ku di coffee bean..
skip skip.....
ada tia my friends ani... durang cari parking....
ngam keta merci paking depan coffee bean ani kan keluar....
so my friend ani na sedar cina ani kan reverse so belanggar tia....
cina atu marah2 lah....
so aku aga durang

cina: ehh kamu orang ah mesti bayar gantu rugi
ayen: bah berapa? kami bayar awal ani....
cina atu tekajut wa dgr ckp ku ah...
cina: ini ahh mau mau dalam 1000 bah....
Amal: bah fine.. my dady bayarkan....
so Amal bagi cina atu no tpun bapanya...
so all settle...
suddenly si fauzan cakap pat cina atu...
fauzan: ayoo uncle... masa ne uncle ahh payah bah kan cari ganti... lain kali kalau nda mau kna langgar lagi keta ani.... jual saja... gipun buruk dah merci kita atu uncle... eeee pemeknya sikit atu pun pai seribu... bawa ke balai krg tau tau 100 ganya... penipu penipu....

hahaah... telur ehh.... berani wh ia ah.....
cakapnya mana betapis tu....
enuff pasal accident....
:s

Emo Again

i was emo tadi...
very very emo...
gyla...
sepanjang hidup ku becoule... aku inda penah emo cemani...
with helmey ja aku emo cemani ani...

6 more days to my big day....
major darling!
yesterday, aku im-ed with helmey...
iatah aku buat pat nick ku 7 more days...

helmey: :'(
ayen: napa sad?
helmey: i mish you and i felt guilty bah...
ayen: i mish you more.. guilty? why?
helmey: avy nada sini to celebrate your big day....:(
ayen: its okay vy.. we stii have next year...
helmey: its not okay....
helmey: its ur big day.... mau jua tani celebrate sama2 in 1year tani couple ani...
ayen: i know... but there's nothing we can do... ur work more important
*dalam hati: no darling. im much more important, y'know*
helmey: no... 4 me your happiness more important.
helmey: cana ar?
ayen: cana apa?
helmey: avy cuba tanya lah pat management ar..
ayen: no don't have to.... your work is important bah vy....
*me and my big mouth*
helmey: jap2.. avy kan tanya kawan avy lu...
ayen: tanya apa?
helmey: acelerr.....
ayen: chuppy...
helmey: if success baru avy gtau...
ayen: if nda success?
helmey: nda avy gtau
.........................

i know ia tanya kawannya pasal the flight thing...
i know ia kan tukar flight nya dengan kawannya..
but i guess inda success lah....

di malam aku tertidur awal...
so bangun pun awal aroun 7...
helmey mc aku...
masa ku online.....

helmey: :(
ayen: avy.... miss kamu....
helmey: mana cyg? avy text dimalam... na dibalas.. avy call pun na di jawap...
ayen: cyg tetido...
....... *skip skip*
helmey: dah tah.. avy kan masuk lu kajap gi kan flight
ayen: now????
helmey: au....
ayen: napa na gtau?
helmey: na gtau?? avy balik2 text ... di tpun na djwp...
ayen: cyg pun na tau jua avy flight today...
helmey: na tau? 2say ia monday 29.09.08 kaliah...
ayen: lupa wa...
.....

tears dropping.....
ia flight without saying happy birthday...
its okay...
kelmarin ia dah greet aku...
pi inda apalah.....

this is wh im being so emo tadi....
sapa jua na emo....
kan? kan?

Yesterday yesterday..
my close friends text me...
if kamu baca my nick, you would think that aku kelaie ma helmey...
yes kami kelaie...
i mean not really kelaie lah...
tapi ia marah pat aku...

time sungkai..
aku atu online tarus ke dapur makan...
my handphone atu lam bilik...
then baru ja berapa minit...
he text me...
pastu ia bad mood coz aku na reply ia punya text....
so terus bad mood lah...

so aku pun pujuk2 ia...
useless..
penyamal bah ia ah....
if aku text ia tu ah...
replynya hm hm ganya tu...

pi pagi esuknya tadi ok dah...
i explain everything rah ia...
atu pun alum cool down ia ah...
until i said "i love you"
baru tah ia kalah....

hahha..
now i know his weakness...
hee..

thanks to:
Joannda
Michelle
Sarah
Aliyah
Nazrine
Lynn
Ally
Abang Fauzan
Abang Jeff
Malique
Kojie
Jhoy
Dude
........
Thanks for cheering me up....
i love kamu equally

Im Back

im back to update my profile...
gipun kan ada urang atu ngomplain pasal aku na update post.....
biasalah.. busy shopping...
hehehe...
masa ri tu i went to mall manggis with my family...
shopping beli perhiasan diri...
hehe....
mama atu gi sampai 2 3 kutak kasut ah....
uhhh....
nafsu shopping andangnya....
hee..
i can't wait to wear baju raya...

mummy ri atu wah...
she told me kami na kan beraya di miri....
so i was like...
damn eee...
i miss my nini gurl...
:(
apatah lagi the two sisters...
*kaka nurul miss you, Izzah Basyirah and Syaza Irdina*
hopefully kamu datang beraya ke Brunei....
huhu kaka miss kamu bah:'(

kami na dapat ke miri atu pun pasal my dad kaja....
urghh...
iatah tadi pat kfm...
ada main lagu raya...
lagu raya lama ah...
tapi aku na tau nama lagu atu....
sedih plang dengar lagu atu....
i was crying mendangar lagu atu...
coz... 1st day of raya every year except this year...
awal2 pagi sudah main lagu raya atu wah....
macam kebiasaan jua ku tu dgr lagu atu pagi2 raya di miri...
so when i listen to the song....
i was crying bah...
the memories...
the fuhn....
all the families di rumah nini....
all the grandson granddaughters were there...
chasing each other...
jumping around...
ohh did i tell you guys only me and my brother (cousin) were the only teeneagers among the cousins...
i mean cucu2 nini...
we are the only teenagers...
when we together...
we are so like kaka and abang to the sisters and brothers...
but this year only my families cant come to miri...
pi my ngangah ke miri...
so they gonna enjoy their raya there...
i miss those moments....

Dead Silence - you scream, you die

Last last night...
i was im-ed with hajah...
for the very first time ia online...
the reason she didn't online is..... she accidentally delete her turbo msn....
what a reason.... :P

we talked about this movie called DEAD SILENCE
mannn.....
its creepy....
when i looked at the dolls... omigad.....
goosebumps at my neck y'know...
it really freaks me out...
that night i just realised that i had the DVD..
i never watch it...
now im watching it while im blogging.... ALONE....
its okay....
i still can hear my mom watching this korean movie in her room...
loud!
macam mama and daddy atu kelaie ganya...
;D

back to the movie...
i love the poem y'know....

Beware the stare of Mary Shaw
She has no children, only dolls
If you see her in your dreams
Be sure you never ever scream
Or she'll rip your tongue out at the seam

Nice? i know.............
2 thumbs up......

Insinuate

I love insinuate people....
when people started to mess with me, beware yeahhh....
im maybe look like a scarycat..... but once you mess with me..... inda aman...

i just finished blogging pat my other blog....
not listed at my site...
cause the blog kinda private....
only for Joannda, Michelle *Joannda sister*, Sarah, Raf, Malique, and sewaktu dengannya.

I just realised that someone messed up with Joannda.
But JD *short form for JoannDa* didn't tell me...
She thought its only a crap.... but then Sarah and I got involved.
That bitch, ALIYAH, told JD not to be so close with us...
the reason is:
*im flirtin with ALIYAH'S boyfriend.
*SARAH such a backstabber.
how stupid i'm flirtin with her ugly boyfriend.
JD didn't trust her coz she knows im so in love with Helmey.
and she knows Sarah never backstabbed her... we know Sarah very well y'know...
and i was shocked when did Sarah so close to her to tell her bad thing about JD???
Weird.......

and how am i suppose to flirt with her boyfriend?
i mean heyyy....
i don't even know her boyfriend dude....
ohhs....
if her boyfriend flirt with another woman.... let it be...
she's nothing....
she's no longer special if her boyfriend flirtin with other woman....
kesiannnn deh lho....

she texted JD at JD's CBOX...
oooomiiiigaaaadd....
she was trying so hard to make JD trust her...
hahaha...
so i tag her....
she never replied...
all she did was she chat with her friends....
i mean...
hey... not even a single text bah kana reply ani....

suddenly one of her friends tag me...
your nightmare: ehhh kau mau softway or hardway?
helmey's: hmmmm softway?? hardway??? tupperwear nada?:P
your nightmare: eh jangan mbuat aku sampai ku menampar mua mu ah
helmey's: tampar???wuuu takut ku ehhh.... gyla... gagah eee... ijap ku - NOT!
your nightmare: SIAL jua kau ane. agatah ko sama kawan kapir mu ah!
helmey's: eeee kalah yaa...... hahahaha. sialan kau atu! pi kan if kamu ada masalah sama kami bawa bebincang bah... ani kan kelaie... cam kanak2 jua eee....

then no text from her.
hahaha...
suddenly its over...
cematu saja overnya ah....
thank god, JD na pecaya semua fitnah ah...
love you JD....
Sarah???
sshe don't even care y'know...
i mean when we talked about those stuff...
she's like...... nothing....
we all trust her....
im so tired bah apsal kelaie ani...

ada urang ah...
mun menyindir dibelakang...
sudah kana cakapi eksen tia ukan pasal atu....
macam takut2...
berani nya ganya dibelakang ah...
hey....
whats the use menyindir blakang2....
wahhh.......
im good at menyindir ani eee....
haha...
panas telinga tu....
:D

Heartbroken

i still remember when i had this conversation with my mom last 2 years.
she asked me if i really couple with Manan.

well manan is my long lost friend.
my bestfriend back in 1998 - 2001.
when we all grown up, i continued to study in pds secondary school while he moved to Mktab Soas.
my mom know him, he's her ex-student.

SMJA is close to my house y'know...
everyday except when it is raining, i walked home..
then.... when i walked home
from far, i tot it was Jus.
Jus look like him.
So i tot it was Jus with his girlfriend.
but no....
i realised bini-bini atu si edah.
so i tot that there is no way edah couple with jus.

'Jus' approached me.....
and i was like....
"Kau panya Manan! ku pikir si Jus"
he laughed.
then we had a little chat....
i went back home with a big smile, mummy.
He still remember me bah, manakan ada big smile :P

The next day, me and my-i-used-to-called-bestfriend (now inda lagi), Tikah,
went to mabohai during lunch time.
So, Manan was there.
I talked with Manan time atu....
He asked my phone number.
so i gave it to him.
That night jua....
Manan texted me..
he wants to call me.

he's such a sweet talker.
he proposed me.
he told me he's not a player lagi.
he told me he apologised to all his ex-gf coz he cheated on them.
then..... he said he wanna have that relationship with me...
so i accept him.
both of us confessed that we were like each other in the year 2000.
20th march2006 - our date.
still remember the date, i wrote that dumb date at my calculator...

when i went to Mabohai with tikah, i saw him with his friends.
he sat next to me.
i escape my economic extra class just to spend my time with him.
that day, i was in love with him.
i mean, really in love with him.
but then, he changed.
totally changed....

when i spend the day with the girls..
izzah and nadia asked me if i knew Manan.
and i said yes...
then izzah tarus2 cakap, "nah kan si ain wah eh!"
and me with the bangan face asked them why....
rupanya durang pun kenal Manan...
Nadia is one of his ex-girlfriends.
so me and Nadia talked about him....
how stupid i am in love with him.
y'know.
i asked nadia if Manan pernah minta maaf arah ia..
then she said nada.
i told Nadia from A to Z y'know....
i was foolish....
fooled by him...

so me and nadia started to hate him.
ohhh yeahhhh...
when i was having a phone call with him...
he told me that he's a royal blood..
his real name is Pengiran Anak something something...
can't remember....
so i asked Ali and Hakim if they knew that name...
they said no...
i told nadia....
and she was like "apaehhhh...."
"ia gtau aku namanya ..............."
its different bha!
Nampak kan penipunya....

so atikah asked me to break up with him...
and yes i did..
no reactions from him.
i don't mind.
Macam lagu Justim Timberlake.
"What Goes Around Comes Around"

so after a few months...
mummy asked about my relationship with him...
so i told her that we broke up....

mom: cemana tah kau sama si manan? ok?
me: we broke up.
mom: aiiik? napa?
me: i dumped him... okay?
mom: why?
me: he sux!
mom: astah... ok jua si manan atu..... mama suka plang kau sama ia.
me: esh entah eh.... malas tah ku lagi.....
mom: bah belajar saja... jantah luan dipikirkan.
so i go to my bed, buka file bio and cry.....
then tetido :D

last few months....
mama becerita.....

mom: dek, tadi ada si manan di pds ah....
me: ah napa ya??? behapa ya ksana?? buang tabiat?
mom: entah. mama tanya ia kali jawapnya kan melawat....
me: melawat taie palatnya ah... sama sapa ya?
mom: sama si filzah ingat?
me: ohhh ingat ingat.....
mom: macam couple jua durang atu, mama nampak ia sama si filzah diri2 becerita.....
me: ohhhh..... inda ya skulah kah? nyamak sana atu....?
mom: entah ia cakap ia keraja....
me: keraja dimana??
mom: malas mama kan tanya....
dalam hati...*au mummy i don't even care pasal ia.... i love my helmey bha!*

i know mummy paham perasaan anaknya....
i know mummy tanya mana ia keraja....
but because of the broke up thingy, mummy pun na mau cakap pasal ia....
thanks mummy....
you seems to know everything..... how i feel inside......
you have that high taste you know....
you dont want me to have a-no-future-boyfriend like uhmmm you always remind me
"mama na mau kau ada boyfriend yang nada masa depan, yang keja macam askar, gurkha, kaja tempat kedai2 atu kaja tempat restaurant... mama na mau. pilih yang bisai sikit macam engineer kah, doctor kah, steward kah.......
hahahahaha see... high taste kan??hehehe...
but hey...
i found one....
my avy.... my lover.... my boyfriend.... my soul mate.....
one of her taste jua tuuu...
heeee....
:P

mama... daddy i love you..... equal nehhhh....
:D

Movies

Im bored.. y'know.
I just finished watching this movie... 'Mummy'
But kinda boring....
Rate from 1 - 10....
Only 5 from me.

I need a movie like 'Wanted'.
I really enjoyed the movie.
Rate 1 -10...
fo sho' its 10 darling.
im not really satisfied that Angelina Jolie died at the end.
And the hero....
gaaaaaddd! fucking hot!
I don't watch the movie until freaky told me that its very the siokk.
its true.
and not to forget....
Batman and Hell Boy....
NICE!

But....
'Mummy' and 'X-files'....
ooomiiigaddd....
Boring kali ahhh.....
i fell asleep when i watched those movies...

Can't wait for new DVDs from mommy and daddy
:D

That is too much

Pathetic

My boyfriend hari tu kena tumbuk...
time atu di belakang SKH ah...
masa ia kan jalan, ada kawannya bini-bini tagur ia..
sudah atu...
ia tercium bau arak ah....
disindirnya durang atu...

masa ia membelakangi durang...
palanya kana antak kai botol vodka ah...
kaca kali tu ah....
iatah muanya bangkak and palanya bedarah.....

ampai ampai ia ah pat motornya..
luckily ada sumone hel him....
that guy bawa ia ke hospital..
kena tahan semalam...

TO GUYS OUT THERE....
IF KAMU RASA KAMU ATU MATANG AND LELAKI SEJATI...
PLEASE DEH....
UKANNYA BETUMBUK....
BTUMBUK ANI TUK KANAK2 GANYA BAH YANG SAMA BUDUH MACAM KAMU...!!
LAIN KALI BEBINCANG DULU....
JANN KAN BETUMBUK, PALOI!
FUCK EH!

Done

My exam abiz sudah :D
i mean kelmarin plang sudah tu....
well i managed to do it...
Now just wait for my result...

HaPpY HoLs

I Got That Good Good

I lovee this song...
the video - Nelly and Ashanti.

Uh Uh when you hear it knockin’ like that
Ya’ll know what this is

When my man leave the house
I know he’s coming right back
I got that good good
I got that good good
No matter how much he might try to act
He know just where it’s at
I got that good good (yup)
I got that good good (yup)

I put it on him right (uh)
I do it every night (uh)
I leave him sittin’
Mouth open
Like, “Whoa!”
So I don’t worry bout (uh)
nobody takin my (okay)
Cause I know just the right thang to do
I got that good good

I never had a problem with the one
Never been worry about him ever cheating on me
Cause when I say I got that pop lock and drop it
Believe me
If I’m with you It’s gonna kill you
On the days you don’t see me
See The things I possess a lot of women don’t (don’t)
And the things I’mma do for my most wont (won’t)
I hear em talking bout it when I’m up on the salon
Crying cause they man aint come home
I try to tell em


When my man leave the house
I know he’s coming right back
I got that good good (uh)
I got that good good (uh)
No matter how much he might try to act
He know just where it’s at
I got that good good (uh)
I got that good good (uh)
I put it on him right
I do it every night
I leave him sittin’
Mouth open
Like, “Whoa!”
So I don’t worry bout (haha) nobody takin my
Cause I know just right thang to do
I got that good good

Ladies don’t believe half what you hear
Cause its all a waste of time
If you know you got that good good good
Everything will be just fine
So let your man be the man when he in public
Even though behind the scenes yall be runnin
Let him run with his boys
Let him play his little games
Let him drive his Cadillac
Don’t worry hell be back

When my man leave the house
I know he’s coming right back
I got that good good (uh)
I got that good good (uh)
No matter how much he might try to act
He know just where it’s at
I got that good good (uh)
I got that good good (uh)
I put it on him right
I do it every night
I leave him sittin’
Mouth open
Like, “Whoa!”
So I don’t worry bout nobody takin my
Cause I know just right thang to do
I got that good good

If you got that good good
And you know it ladies show em where its at
Right here
Where its at
Right here

See I don’t know what them otha girls be doing
They be Crying bout they man cause they always losing
You need that good good
gotta have that good good
So keep on good good
they need that good good

When my man leave the house
I know he’s coming right back
I got that good good
I got that good good
No matter how much he might try to act
He know just where it’s at
I got that good good
I got that good good
I put it on him right
I do it every night
I leave him sittin’
Mouth open
Like, “Whoa!”
So I don’t worry bout nobody takin my
Cause I know just right thang to do
I got that good good

True Story?

Last few weeks, during my maths class..
aku atu becerita sama sii slut and sii blow...
sii slut ani from soas dulu...
eatah ea ceta pat kami this story......

" ehh kamu pernah dangar kah pasal urang suas ah yang kes dalam jamban?
ea emani wah tu.....
masa ya lam jamban... ea masukkan hos atu pat juburnya...
sudah dikeluarkannya...
ia punya intestine atu pun ikut keluar wah...
sekali kan that guy panic...
iatah di guntingnya ia punya intestine atu then di buangnya........"

and i was like......

"apaeh banar wah???"
"tipu mu ehh!"
"cana buleh atu?"
"inda kan diguntingnya!"

hahaha....
readers, im not sure lah samada banar atau inda..
pi sii slut atu serius jua muanya time ia becerita ahh...
pi if kamu ada adi beradi or boyfriend from soas,
ask them......

2 - 1??

GODDAMNIT!!

urghhh~~ 2 - 1??
LiverFOOL pulang manang ani bah!
kalah manchester!
Not fair!
urgh~~

my helmey minat liverfool...
he laughed at me!
baie!
you sux, vy! hee:P
yet, i love you to the max!

Final

Tomorrow is my last exam - English.
I totally screwed up my accounting...true!
But i managed to answer my maths paper 1 and 6.
And my geography too...

I read Hajah's blog..
Pity S aka Husnina....
She took 5 subjects:
-Sociology
-History
-GP
-Bahasa Melayu
-unknown

And Hajah...
She will end her fucking day this Tuesday afternoon - last day of exam
Right darling??
p/s: i miss kamu2. :(

me???
Tomorrow will be my last day...
yeaysss....

WakE mE UP WheN SEptemBer End~

Dubai

Yesterday....
I had a phone call with my hubby...
Again....
Sad things happen....
Always..

First until 4th day of raya he will be off to Dubai..
Seeee......................
Urghhhh....
i know he's working
Jauh kali tu ahhh...
Then he told me that...
Probably he won't online since there is no wireless connection...
Damn ehhh....

:(

In The Ayer

Oh hot damn, this is my jam

Keep me partying till the A.M

Ya'll don't understand, make me throw my hands

In the ayer, ay, ayer, ayer, ay, ayer

Hey this is my jam

Ya'll don't understand

I'll make you understand

What's pumpin in my CD player (player)

Party all night like yayer (yayer)

Shawty got a hand in the ayer (ayer)

Make me want to take it dayer

Then I go, here I go, here is my song
DJ bring it back come in my zone
I get paid for them couple bonez the next wop until the early morn I need that crunk when I'm up in tha club even my when my chevy pull up on them dubs give me that drop yellow waist like a drug lil mama hot and she might show me love o hot damn celebrate to tha A.M I love it so much it got me sayin

Oh hot damn, this is my jam
Keep me partying till the A.M
Ya'll don't understand, make me throw my hands
In the ayer, ay, ayer, ayer, ay, ayer

Hey Heyy I might just start the wave like I'm at a ball game do my thang hands up high I got money in tha bank I'm so fly 747 pain rock it no stop it how I got my name baby keep poppin you might get tha fame walk tha red carpet won't see you the same I get tha stuntin forget my name start with me ride with me represent tha city vibe with me make me throw it up ma timid in tha club go ahead throw it up gotta wonder how much to show enough to stare(stare) I'm hood so it's really unfair (unfair) shorty go ahead and get bare(bare) we ain't gonna treat our city like the
mayor(mayor)

Oh hot damn, this is my jam
Keep me partying till the A.M
Ya'll don't understand, make me throw my hands
In the ayer, ay, ayer, ayer, ay, ayer


Alright now stop oooo put your hands in the ayer it's a stick (a stick up stick up) it's a stick up just to tha ceilin man

Body like that

have you guys ever watch Nelly's and Flo Rida's video?
damn....
their body fucking goddamnit HOT!!
HOT AND SEXY DARLING!

better watch - Party People by Nelly and In The Ayer - Flo Rida....
i watched their videos million times until Joanda (i miss you, gf) thought that im crazy!
i am crazy!
crazy over their hot body!
ohhssss.....
this is too muchh..
just watch lahhhh~~

Couple

This happen lama plang sudah.
I think during block 1 kali masa aku duduk2 belakang surang2 baca buku lam library
Baru ani ku ingat pasal this couple..
aku duduk hampir durang.... dibelakang durang atu lah..
so apa saja cerita durang, kedengaran kali tu ahhh...

boy: sayang, you love me?
girl: ofcoz lah, gf mana jua na love bfnya
boy: alaaaa.... manatau. sayang atu gi banyak peminat....
bla bla bla na gi ku berapa ingat.... yhen at the last part...
girl: hubby nada class kan?
boy: class hubby kana cancel. jan kan escape ah!
girl: inda eh.. tapi hubby jan ngurat ah
boy: i won't. i love you bah sayang!
bla bla bla

hahaha.....
then their conversation stopped.....
pasal apanah........
aku batuk then durang tekajut....
hahaha....
telur aku ani eyh....
pi kan kinda sweet lah how they talk to each other.....
nyehehehe....

Hurt

Last Monday, my boyfriend off to Thailand.
For 3 days baby... 3 days!
Im here missed him goddamn much..
In 3 days, i can feel he's far away from me...

Helmey: Cinta.. anitah dugaan ada bayfriend cabin crew.... sabar saja..

That's what he told me before he left..
He told me he will online when he reach there...
Yes, he did.
On line is just not enough.
i want him here. Not in Thailand.
At lease I know that he's safe here..
Im so fucking damned worried about his health.
I dont wan to mention it here...
It hurt for both of us..
Especially him..

At 2 a.m before he left..
He called me..
he even sang that song - classic love song...
hehehes...
It's really really meaningful, y'know!

ohhs...
I love him..
I love that man from head to toe..
I trust his promises that morning so does he...
I love you, helmey...

in love,
nurul ain nazuha
xoxox

i realised that i always make a spelling mistake....
hahaha
ngok ehhh
sorry if ada spelling or grammar error...
im not that perfect...
nobody's perfect..
eventho how sexy you are...
how genius you are...
stilll.... there's some kind of 'bitch' inside you
*kata kata dari sii raniel*

Raniel... saya rindu kamu, bangsat!
:'(
Text me if you online.
love you, bestfriend!

guysss...
im off...
its a big day today...
a real big day today...!
nyte nyte!
xoxo

Exams

Im so stress
EXAMS....! who need one??

tomorrow...
i'll be having maths exam...
and the next day..
i'll be having Accounting exam..

can't wait for the exam to be over...
then..
i can spend my time watching DVDs and my boyfriend.

WAKE Me uP wHeN SEMPTEMBER eNDs

ohhs...
im not fasting today ahh...
i slept at 3 and woke up at 8...
"ohh shit!"
i really don't mind about the sahur thingy...
inda beniat bha...
cemana tah jua kan puasa....
puasa without niat???
NO!!
pi inda apalah.....
:D
my darling pun inda jua puasa kelmarin :p

Boredom

Nyehehe....
change the template..
again...

anyways..
sorry to Faiz..
i change the templaye yang kau buat ah...
benciku sama macam si Badut
chapee...

When it gonna end?

Boss said to secretary: For a week we will go abroad,

so make arrangement.

Secretary make call to Husband: For a week my boss and

I will be going abroad, you look after yourself.

Husband make call to secret lover: My wife is going

abroad for a week, so lets spend the week together.

Secret lover make call to small boy whom she is giving

private tution: I have work for a week, so you need

not come for class.

Small boy make call to his grandfather: Grandpa, for a

week I don't have class 'coz my teacher is busy. Lets

spend the week together.

Grandpa(the 1st boss ;) ) make call to his secretary: This week I am

spending my time with my grandson. We cannot attend

that meeting.

Secretary make call to her husband: This week my boss

has some work, we cancelled our trip.

Husband make call to secret lover: We cannot spend

this week together, my wife has cancelled her trip.

Secret lover make call to small boy whom she is giving

private tution: This week we will have class as usual.

Small boy make call to his grandfather: Grandpa, my

teacher said this week I have to attend class. Sorry I

can't give you company.

Grandpa make call to his secretary: Don't worry this

week we will attend that meeting, so make arrangement

thanks

safri: hye
ayen: hye :D
safri: napa jealous? *he read my nick*
ayen: nothing
safri: bis tu your nick?
ayen: jealous pat my friend. she just finish her exam. im not.
safri: pikir pat by eh. yeaha.
ayen: inda lah... i don't mind if by ada gf baru
safri: andangnya bu ada gf baru..
ayen: hope you happy with her..
safri: andangnya by happy. kan kawin kali ah
ayen: gud..
safri: becinta ma hny pun macam ukan becinta jua
safri: cari tah laki2 yang tplajar and pandai macam hny.. by nada semua atu
ayen: hmm okay.........

he got dc
i forced myself not to cry...
it happen long time ago...
and now...
im happy ... much happy than before before....

now...
i finally found my true love - Muhd Hafizul Al-Helmey
he's my everything - mylover, my drug, my boyfriend, my close friend, my best friend, my soul mate... and one day he will be my sex mate.... hahahaha its true

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH BABY BOO.

I enjoy you.
i never wanna see you leave BOO.
you've made my life
so complete and i don't
wanna move too fast, no,
cause you're too special.

i really love the way
you make me feel inside.
you wonder why my
spirit is so happy.

i may never find another
one like you. for me

Happy 18th Birthday

♥Happy 18th birthday to Zaitulfarahhinnah♥Again.... Happy Birthday woman!!

Damn.. you're 18 now... and im no longer 18... haha pathetic.. i know
Wish you the best.. darling!
Have a blast!

Do you still remember how we first met?
i know your 1st impression about me is that im so called 'pendiam'
haha...
i miss those days when we were in the auditorium where you used to seat beside me until now...

Its fun to have you around..
its fun to talk with you..
its fun to tease you..
what else...
ohh yeahh... you are my 'ngumpat' mate..
hahaha..

anyways...
good luck in everything you do yeah...
think positive always..
don't think to much about that QUEEN BITCH
never give up...

lastly...
you are my new bestfriend..
love you..
xoxo

Miss Him Already

Last night..
i was so being emo.
entah...
probably because im bored then suddenly no mood...

At the same time he went online.
(he refers to my lovve, helmey)
i was crying.. entah na tau napa..
Yeahhh...
Be with him..
makes me "warm".....
yang ku terharu..
he text me
..........................................
haha saybokkk neh :p

now...
i feel so empty...
tadi pagi ia flight ke Singapore...
and malam baru balik..
(ohh is ke singapore ukan bcuti... he works...steward)
iatah now i know cana rasanya.... :(

loving my - Mohd Hafizul Al-helmey :)